Then walks into contact improv class for the first time this gorgeous woman who has an energy about herself that is mysterious. Immediately I am drawn to her yet stay in the moment in class. We end up getting paired together for an exercise involving laying on a yoga mat while massaging your partner, preferably without our hands. Without even thinking I start with my head and use my entire body to massage her. I didn't avoid the "uncomfortable" areas, I jumped all in. I was enjoying myself in the still newness of being so vulnerable with a "stranger" and the physical touch and pouring into her that was happening. My thinking mind was not in the forefront. I was feeling without judgment and doing without reserve. Then it came time to switch….I got a little anxious and nervous. Funny b/c I was so calm and forthcoming with her. I was also in control and I know how I like my control when it comes to my body. I laid down, closed my eyes and just told my mind to be still, let things unfold as they may. I enjoyed my massage. The time was not long enough with her. I think the whole class could have been this partner massage concept. We both looked one another in the eye (which is a positive gesture) and said thank you. Where did this woman come from? Will she be back? Who is she? What are her passions? Is she into women? Wait….why did that question creep into my thinking mind?? B/c I find her attractive and I allow myself to be vulnerable. I am drawn to her energy. There is something within her that excites me. I thank her for coming to class and say I hope to see you next week….I will be teaching. She says, Oh I won't be here next week I have prior commitments. I was a bummed she wouldn't be there yet maybe she would come back in two weeks and I could move with her again. She stayed in my thoughts wondering who this woman is and what she does in her life.
I was just about 7-10 minutes into my contact improv warm up when I see her walk through the door. I was so excited to see her I had to draw it in and contain. I was teaching for fuck sake! So I continued in my calm voice walking the class through the exercise. I steered clear of her space until she was settled in, then I came over to her. The next exercise we had to pair up and we had an odd number. She was left standing. As much as I wanted to dance solely with her and do the exercise with her I would not focus on teaching and this was my role tonight. So I pointed to have her go with a trio. She still stayed in her space. I wondered if this was a "subtle" hint. I took her by the hand and walked her over to a couple and she began to move. I watch her when she moves. She has such an awareness of herself that is beautiful. I did throw myself into the mix of movements in class so I could dance with her. When we dance together it is close and supportive, gentle and guiding and feels so damn good. I feel something happening inside of me when our bodies connect. This could all be part of my contact improvisation experience or there could be more. Only time will tell the depth of our connection. I love that her name is not common, she is in the arts, she is expressive and has an intuitive awareness of her being and looks as if she loves to move. She remains a mystery and I am ok with that right now.